Sunday, November 14, 2010

The time has come...


It's officially that day. Sigh. Yep, the time has come, my friends, that I am starting calorie counting. When I was a baby post op, I just counted protein, fluid and made sure to get my vitamins. I kept saying, I know there will be a day that I'll have to start logging and counting calories, one day. I always felt that "one day" was still far off... Well that "one day", it's NOW. 

This all came about because I said, a few weeks back, that chocolate wasn't my thing (it's not, really), and that Hubby bought a bunch of candies I wouldn't eat. BUT THEN CAME AFTER HOLIDAY SPECIALS. Oh gosh. An entire 200pk of LAFFY TAFFY and SWEET TART HEAVEN. For less than 3 dollars. It was like 11 dollars a bag before the holiday. 
Although I do not believe in feeling guilt for the occasional indulgence (or regret at all for that matter), I know allowing myself frequent, DAILY indulgences is not a healthy thing, and it's just the gateway for allowing myself down that slippery slope. There's no point in feeling guilty for something that can't be changed. It's all about making good choices, next time. But right now, I am not making good choices for my food intake.

Choices. Each and every single day. See, I do not believe in New Year's resolutions. I have never kept one that I set, I occasionally was too drunk to even remember what it had been. That joking, and silly reason aside. We have control of our lives. We make choices, some come with consequences, some with rewards, and some with just simple satisfaction. Whether it be for a WLS patient, Joe, that dude that lives across my street, Bob, that weird dude that runs like a sissy girl that I always see crossing at the same street, anyone... they have the ability to control the situation they are involved in, by controlling our actions. By just taking a step back and making a choice.  All choices will have a result. Cause=Effect. See, knowing this and doing this are different things, and my point is that waiting until New Year's is just an easy cop out and an easier way for more weight to creep its' way back on. 

Now, I know that I am at a healthy weight, one I could be comfortable keeping. If I don't gain a single pound, that would be fantastic, if it doesn't go down anymore, I was okay with that, too. I say was, because I have gained some weight since the lowest weight I have ever been in my adult life, that presented itself a couple weeks ago (month maybe?). Anyhow, the scale is not my friend... Ah, well maybe it is, cause it always tells me the dirty, evil, straight-up truth. No lies there. 

Stand on it... wait... and beepbeepbeep- there it is. The Ugly Truth. Fact. No argument to be made. I am not at the weight I was at a few weeks ago. Period. 

So, this is the plan:

I am going to count my calories, fat, carbs, etc for the next week days (until next Friday), to give myself an honest picture of what I'm really taking in food/calorie wise. I already count protein intake.  I started documenting my food last week, on Monday, so I've got most of the previous week logged already. Most, because I get off track of everything on the weekends, and didn't journal a single food morsel. I need to continue the right track, every day of the week, until I am back in control. 

I will be recording my intake on fitday.com. I will post my progress each day, on the WLS board on facebook. Being accountable to that support system and being honest is one of the tools I know I need to utilize. I will try to blog on Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday with updates. I will commit to at least 30 minutes of additional physical activity 3 days this week. I say additional, because I have a physical job and have been making myself use the stairs already. 

I don't weigh myself every day, never really have, as that would be cruel. I don't believe it's a healthy habit. At. All.  Since I weigh once weekly, I decided for the next couple weeks I will increase it to twice weekly for records purposes only. So, Monday/Friday are my weigh in days.  

Recap 

I am going to journal the following:
Food intake (good, bad, and really ugly) logged
Fluid intake
Log hours of sleep, vitamins and medications
Daily posting here
Blog updates at least 3x per week
30 minutes additional physical activity 4x per week
Weigh in on Monday, Friday. 

I should probably consider doing this long term, journaling all of these things. So that I am able to look back and see how I'm doing. But, for now, I will commit to doing this for the next couple weeks. 

2 comments:

  1. Good for you! So you went on a homeless crack addict style Halloween candy binge with the Laffy Taffy and Sweet Tarts... the important thing is that you pick yourself up out of the pile of wrappers and get back on the right track ;-)

    Calorie counting is no easy task though. It's not so bad when it's something from the grocery store or cooking for yourself. But then you go out to some non-chain restaurant and there's no telling how many calories are in that giant bowl of pasta with cream sauce or vitenamese bun thit nuong noodle salad.

    Here's to making it through the holidays 10 lbs lighter!

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  2. I am glad that you are at a healthy weight. I used to binge eat too and I always hated myself afterward.

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